Forgive the silence

I have been... really in my head. I really should stop but its funny, I get in there and I cannot get out.

But today I have a couple of catch up posts for you.

First gratitude:

1) I am grateful for the spring. Finally there is sun, and birds, and grass, and warmth.

2) I am grateful that there is such things as online TV shows that I can catch up on. Perhaps a little two often.

3) I am grateful for my friend Lori, who makes me try new things, and when I do, I can come home and make them myself.

4) I am grateful ..... I miss my brother.

5) I am grateful for Fly Lady because now I have a shiny sink, and it really does make all the difference.

Its Wednesday...

and so first off...

1) I am grateful that the middle of the week is here, with its long slow slope into the weekend. Even though as a single stay at home mum a weekend is no different than the week, it still feels special. I guess because everyone on WoW gets to play all day!

2) I am grateful that I get to look at apartments and just dream of living there one day, there are tons of really interesting little spaces in Toronto. The bathrooms make them really odd, though. Sometimes the toilet is in the tightest little space. So cool.

3) Its going to be 18C today.... who does not love that?

4) I am happy that today thunderstorms are predicted. I hate them, they make me nervous, but I kind of missed that.

5) I am really grateful for toilet paper. :)

Good morning world.

I am starting late because the muse bit me in the rear end this morning and I have been caught up writing the story that seems it needs to be told. Have not even had my coffee this morning.

The List:

1) So grateful for my family, odd and very eccentric as they are. I miss them desperately.

2) Friends who get me out of myself and out into the world.

3) My door.

4) My computer, my word processor, and my imagination. Long live Open Source Software!!!

5) I am ever so grateful to the people who opened their mouths about GCC and everything that happened there, grateful for everyone who is helping us stand up to the past, and grateful that somehow, we will be healed.

Naughty me...

I nearly forgot to do the gratitude list. *gasp* How shocking!

Well, before you all go nuts waiting, here is my five for today.

1) Friends, I never know when you are going to pop up, or what you will say, but I am ever so grateful for your presence in my life, no matter how far you may orbit. Brian you know this is about you right?

2) Naps, I took a fast one just to try to get the little one to go down too, and it worked. She is asleep and I got a few minutes of recharging my batteries.

3) Garbage bags. Right now, I am in the midst of spring cleaning. Not the regular spring cleaning by the way, this time, everything that I have not used or worn in the last two months goes in the trash, or recycle, or Goodwill bin.

4) Coffee. 'Nuff said.

5) For the little one. She might have the loudest most ear piercing shriek, but it lets me know she is alive, and gives me a much deeper appreciation for silence.

First of all...

My gratitude list:

1) I am very grateful that today here in Toronto, its not raining, and there is sun. It feels like the world is just singing right now, with almost all of the snow melted away, and the grass starting to peek out. Come on, Spring!

2) I am grateful for the fast thinking of mothers, and some helpers who when the little one could have been scalded she was not, because three pairs of hands stripped her tea soaked pants off of her before they had a chance to touch her.

3) I am grateful for the College streetcar. Its just a really nice ride. Someday I will post pictures. It goes through the neatest areas of town. You can even see the purple house, and the firetruck red one.

4) I am grateful for my friends, and you know who you are.

5) I am grateful for coffee. Its a truly wonderful thing. So is chocolate.

Good morning world! Its a truly wonderful day. :)

Gratitude

Again this morning I get started with my gratitude list.

1) I am grateful for the time I have to watch my daughter grow, develop, and the chance it offers me to help her grow in to a good person.

2) Even though I live in a building that is being ghetto-ized by its newer residents, I have a roof over my head, and a sanctum that I can retreat to when things get overwhelming.

3) I am grateful that I have this blog, that I created something that I can put my time and effort into, even if it helps just one person, I have done something.

4) I am grateful for my success as a writer, as a speaker, and that it has allowed me to make some really wonderful changes.

5) I am grateful that I have the story that I do, it makes me really interesting. :)

I like making this list because its a five minute reminder of how much I truly have to celebrate.

Going downtown but first... a story

I was not sure that I was going to put this in my blog, but I think I am going to because it really means a lot to me.

Yesterday I bought a scratch lottery ticket. It was a $3 investment in a Monopoly game. While scratching at home, I was just being really positive about winning, something, anything. I scratched off two of the pieces for a $10,000 prize. And then I scratched off one more. I looked, and looked again.
I then started to get very excited. $10,000 would mean some small but wonderful changes, and I was seeing them come to me. I was ecstatic, I was so happy.
Upon checking the ticket again, I found I had not won the $10,000.

Now how is that uplifting in the least? Because, after not winning, I found myself not even resenting that moment. Because for one moment, I was deliriously happy. That moment for me is a very bright warm spot in my days. It outshines so many others for its sheer joy. So for one minute, I was happy, very very happy. I could not buy that feeling, ever.

I know what that feels like now, and just that is worth smiling about.